Daily Lessons #-23 Bitter has left the building

Bitterness.

I hate that word

I hate the way it has taken over me

I hate how it festers in my soul

and brings my mood, day and outlook down

So finally I've had enough

Last night i Googled

"how to get rid of bitterness"

as an aspiring counselor 

i diminished my whole career in one Google search

but i thought if i cant help myself

how can i help others

Search results were good

((snaps for self-help on Google))

Here is the process in which i made bitterness leave:

1- Write down all grudges and bitterness

2- Think about why these issues cause this bitterness

3- Write down all the positive thing in my life

4- Let go of the bitterness, JUST LET IT GO

5- When feelings of bitterness come up, I need to realize i am blessed 

with an amazing family, friends who feel like family, a boyfriend who makes the word happiness jealous of how happy i am, i am going to school, paying for my school by myself <---  avoiding mounds of debt and i have a full time job! 

Nothing i am bitter about is ever any better then anything in my life.

So i did all of that last night.

Kicked bitterness out of the building.

Then today i woke up with a smile and rainbows and unicorns :)

Ha not really. 

I did remind myself i have nothing to be bitter about

It worked today.

I am sure every day will be a struggle

but i truly rather not be a bitter old lady or young lady.

As of today i am one day bitter free 

and

 I LOVE MY LIFE :)

(( This is AA for internal conflicts ))

Daily Lessons #-22 Hibernation is not just for bears

I find myself to be two extreme opposites in one body.

((not alluding to being schizophrenic or bipolar or multiple personality disorder))

One is a Diva-Socialite-Fashionada- Explorer- Thrill Seeker- Outgoing

And...

One is a bear

Yesterday was a hibernating day

My bear side is still super awesome :)

I sit inside 

move slow

(Really i mean don't shower or get out of bed

and if you must

only if absolutely necessary)

make awesome food

(chicken wraps with chips and salsa

and ranch popcorn with pickles)

num

watch tons of awesome movies

(Love and Other Disasters, 

Some documentary on Old people, 

One Percent

 and the creepy documentary about Woodsboro church)

Then i surf the internet

slowly

like a bear would

I truly enjoy these days to be lazy. 

Every once and a while

I like to pretend I am not actually glued to my phone

and enjoy my own company

ONLY NEGATIVE: 

**Hibernating days should come with this warning

You may have the sudden urge and

the craving to cuddle 

and your problem may be like mine:

 my bear cuddler extreme.lover.man

is too far away

:'(

I did go out a little this weekend.

Hibernating came at the end of the weekend

so before that

i wore:

[This to the Passion Party]

This hair do is an attempt to hide
horrible no shower hair.
i chalk it up to a success!

[This out for my friends birthday partay]

[ I could decide on which jacket...

Final Answer:

i went with the white cardigan]

yay monday is over :)

Have a happy tuesday!

AA Thursday

Awkward & Awesome

Awkward that my forehead is peeling, i am a snake

Awkward that my bum itches because of my ridiculous sunburn

Awkward that i neglect my fish so much but he keeps surviving 

(( he is the best Beta fish ever, i have never kept a fish alive that long )) 

Awkward that i keep eating hot sauce on EVERYTHING

Awkward when i kiss my phone (because the boyfriend is on skype ) 

and people think I'm crazy

Awkward when people bag my groceries at the store

and i have no cash on me

and they have signs that say

"Baggers work for tips only"

Awkward i keep sleeping on the end of my bed 

and switching in the middle of the night

AND&AND

Awesome that i have awesome friends

Awesome that my awesome friends DVR shows for me

Awesome that my awesome friends cook calzones for me

Awesome that all of my homework is done for the weekend :)

Awesome that i am going to my first passion party tomorrow- woo hoo

Bleh. 

Things that are Annoying:

Money

Airfare

Homesickness

((They all seem to be friends though))

Daily Lessons #-21 Craft Time

A lot of times i hold off on craft time 

((as i call it))

because of the

fear that i am not crafty enough

it wont turn out cute

and i am my own harshest critic

Luckily i have friends that think i make cute things :)

I do really love crafting though

i love craft supply stores

i love fabrics

and buttons

i love the different papers

and pens

and stickers

and frames

and blank canvases waiting to be painted

the flowers waiting for wreaths, pens or vases

and because of the nerd i am

I love all the organizations boxes and bins

i am determined to 

slowly master other crafts 

and

this quote helps:

So i have a goal in my head:

 Start my own Etsy Shop

by and have a sale by the end of summer

so thats plenty of time

to make the product

to then make more products

cute business cards

advertise a little

and make one sale

to complete this goal :)

So look forward to that in the future!

In the meantime...

I WANT TO MAKE THIS!!

Super cute right??

The idea came from Say Yes to Hoboken

Which i then tracked down to 

Momtastic

For the full tutorial

I have cork board that is like a banner around my room

i am thinking that would make it look pretty cute!

and those lil pom pom balls are my FAVORITE colors

I also found this idea on Say Yes to Hoboken

I cant find the exact post :( 

But it was a way to wrap presents using yarn

and heres me giving that a whirl

The final product

TA-DA!

And this is the present inside

Wee Gallery Art Cards

According to the description the bold lines are supposed to 

"cater to the baby's visual strengths"

So we will see if baby Alea likes them

Happy Crafting <3

Daily Lessons #-20 Be You

I have read other blogs where people write

400 or 100 

things about me

i am shooting for 50

I think its good every once and a while to sit down

 and think about who you are, what you believe and what you like and dislike.

So here is a few from me:

1. I used to hate my name

 (( I thought Chloe or Zoe would be way more fitting ))

2. I am often called "Boob"

3. I love the color Teal

4. I hate the color pink - Unless its an accent color, NEVER alone though

5. I genuinely love fashion- not so much the fashion world, 

more so the own fashion world i create

6. I dont understand people who only have one or two pairs of shoes

7. I truly believe you can never have enough pairs of shoes

8. I went to an Art School for my Junior year in high school to study theatre

9. I cry at almost every movie

10. Lately i even cry at TV shows

11. My guilty pleasure TV shows are Make It or Break It, The Secret Life and Project Runway

12. I only love soccer because i can normally out run my opponents

13. I was a cheerleader, played soccer, ran track, yearbook, in the DECA business program, newspaper and had two jobs most of high school

14. I miss being that busy

15. I used to have dark brown hair with hot pink underneath

16. I like politics - I just wish they were 

a little more focused ( maybe just in general ) 

on humanitarian issues

17. I believe talking things out can overcome any issue

18. I want a monroe piercing really bad but probably wont ever be able to get one :(

19. I have a tattoo of minnesota's outline on my ribs- I will never regret that tattoo

20. My toe nails are always painted

21. I might be having a love affair on my boyfriend with Netflix

22. I love boutiques and antique stores 

( I blame my grandma for this )

23. I used to plan out my midlife crisis 

and afterwards i would open my own boutique

24. I love mom and pop restaurants

25. I love craft time but don't do enough of it

26. I had a wart on my nose when i was 7... i promise i'm not a witch

27. When i was younger i wanted to be an architect then an interior designer then a photographer then a missionary then a lawyer 

28. I am going to school for none of those

29. I used to spend hours looking through Pottery Barn Teen 

and would create my dream room

30. I have now moved up to Pottery Barn, Ikea and Target 

and do the same thing

31. I love reading the news and am sad that newspaper sales are down

32. I miss my Newsweek subscription

33. I love getting snail mail- more then anything

34. I love earth friendly products or products that help others

35. Today i had a moment where i felt like my life froze and i said 

"Wow, I really am in the United States Army"

36. I never ever ever ever thought about the Army while growing up

and damn sure did not ever think about joining!

37. I love being a student- through government forced conditioning i find it to be the one thing i am really good at

38. I wouldn't say i have particular talents like sewing, ballet, or singing but i would say 

- I am the best note taker you can find

- organizing brings a huge smile to my face

(( Yay ocd ))

- My determination is off the charts

- I am extremely responsible <-- and have been since.... always

i think those count as talents :)

39. I neither a cat person or dog person, i just want some kind of pet!

40. I have a unexplainable friendship with my best friend

we are so close its ridiculous

we talk on the phone for hours upon hours

we never get sick of each other

we cry when either one of us leaves out of town

we explain to our significant others that they have to get used to all of this too

41. I love love love love buying presents

and celebrate every holiday :)

42. I would love to be a personal shopper

43. For some reason i really love the pillow pets pillows

44. I love to doodle

45. I hate when people smack their gum

46. I am seriously addicted to Dr.pepper

47. I love kabobs 

48. I was raised by my mom until 10 then by my grandparents

it was the best of both worlds

49. I love traveling

and tend to get the travel bug a lot

if only my bank account would get the picture

50. I have so many dreams and goals i probably could go to 400 

Yay i did it!

Now you know 50 more things about me!

I would love to learn 

more personal things 
about myself 

and answer questions like this with my boyfriend 

so i am thinking about getting this book

All About Us

I can't decide if he would hate it or like it.. 

i think loving it is out of the picture

(( More to come on this idea ))

<3

P.S. My make believing worked. 

I wasn't too sleepy at work and the day wasn't too overwhelming.

Mental Note: MAKE BELIEVE MORE OFTEN

Daily Lessons #-19 Make believe

I really should be sleeping right now

but i like to 

Make believe my sunburn is not killing me 

(( poor lil bum outline ))

or

Make believe that i do not have to get up early

or

Make believe i do not need much sleep 

to function

to not be cranky

and to not give up lunchtime for nap time

(( which i have been doing lately, its going to be the new diet craze))

((( Really this makes me sound like i am 5 )))

or 

Make believe that this super busy day ahead of me will breeze by

or

Make believe that i actually do not have a million and one things to do 

or....

maybe all of this is denial

Either way the make believe side of me thought it would be fun to stay up late on a work night and let the creative juices rebel against the practical queen that rules me monday through thursday. 

I will let you know how i am tomorrow

but blogging is such a nice outlet

of creativity, freedom and control 

over whatever i want to write

and say

 and in my Army life... 

Where control of my own life is obsolete as war

and creativity is as dead 

as every tree cut down 

to produce the millions of manuals that tell me how to do every move

I love this blog

for letting me

creatively

explode

Here are some pictures in the little purple dress 

that was worn on Saturday

to the Cajun Fest

which it had to be no less then 900 degrees that day

the dress was perfecto

That right there...

is my 

MAKE BELIEVE FACE

(( probably making believing it wasn't 900 degrees ))

:) Happy Make Believing 

Daily Lesson#19- Create your own chaos

Yay i get paid!

Chaos averted

so last night i created my own chaos.

I was so nervous to meet these other Army wives and even felt awkward at first

and now they are the biggest blessing in my life right now.

I have been at Ft.Polk for a year 

and i don't think i have had this much fun

with girlfriends finally

(( the Army seems to be lacking on decent females soldiers to hang out with ))

All of us were in the same boat last night

wondering what our financial fate would be

and we just decided:

that life will go on

God will provide

and we will party until then

Before the partying:

Civilian Clothes Day @ Work

I kept it casual with a gray shirt from Heartbreaker 

((i miss that store so much))

Then i wore boyfriend fit capris from American Eagle

((I have been struggling to make then work for me

but i think i found my answer, THIS OUTFIT))

And to bring it all together

My favorite Toms <3

Later that day...

I had to represent the Twins...

((I do have a Minnesota tattoo after all)

AND WE WON!

In the lyrics of Rihanna 

from her cd Loud

" Cheers to the freakin weekend

ill drink to that"

Have a good weekend and be safe!